Ani Gjika

Negative Space, by Ani Gjika translated from the Albanian by Luljeta Lleshanaku

Griffin Poetry Prize 2019
International Shortlist

Book: Negative Space

Translator: Ani Gjika

Poet: Luljeta Lleshanaku

Publisher: Bloodaxe Books

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Ani Gjika and Luljeta Lleshanaku read from Water and Carbon

from Water and Carbon


Your body throws you under the bus; your body betrays you.
Your body is simply water and carbon.

I was 17 one morning in my prison cell
when after a night of delirium, running a 107-degree fever
caused by bronchopneumonia,
I woke up drenched in my own urine.
I was neither a child nor a man any more.

Then in the labour camp, out in the marsh,
I saw the theologian gathering rotten bits of cigarettes,
smelling the butts, trying to take a single drag.

But when I saw the former Sorbonne professor,
secretly digging through the trash and pick up a piece of watermelon rind,
which he then wiped on his pants and swallowed whole without chewing,
I knew I witnessed five thousand years of civilisation
extinguished in one moment.

Of course, it’s always the fault of the witness,
the wrong eyes at the wrong place.
Without a witness we wouldn’t even have crematoriums
and only white fumes would leak out of history’s nostrils.


He had such dignity, the old man who hung himself
(rejected here on earth and now also in heaven),
his bare feet like a saint’s, his body a frozen planet
revolving one last time around itself,
his head drooped to one side,
as if he were refusing to witness even his own death …

But it didn’t end here; they plucked out his gold teeth
as if removing three generations of his history.
Declassed, disgraced, even among the dead.
How can a toothless man protect himself at the last Judgement?
How could he formulate his arguments?
The dead would laugh; angels would shake their heads.

And so he too would be forgotten.
Simply water and carbon like everyone else.

The living went back to work, eyes cast down as if at their own funeral.
The whips against their joints and back
gave them no time to think much.

You can’t be last in line – this was the goal,
morning to night.

But where was our country at that moment? Where was Caesar?

From Negative Space by Ani Gjika, translated from the Albanian by Luljeta Lleshanaku
Copyright © Luljeta Lleshanaku 2012, 2015, 2018
Translation © Ani Gjika 2018